moon of pluto

maya ocean charon

i want to remember you forever

i think i love it all dec 24 2018 happiest day of my life i think. i've never made memories like this before, i want to remember them forever. i want to remember you forever. when i spend time with you i take so many pictures, i just want …

fitting in

I've never felt like I fit in with anybody. it doesn't matter who it is. a large group of people, or a few. I just don't feel like a part of something bigger, something whole. and it's not because I'm special, unique, an oddball. I feel li…

my eyeballs need COLOUR

there are many people whose blogs are centred around beauty/lifestyle like a self-published fashion magazine, or they post about their daily lives, family, etc. some people just post the things they create like poetry or photography. I am …

diary

I dream of being like Anne Frank, or Anaïs Nin, how their diaries were famously known and read even decades after their deaths. But of course I don't want to experience the terrifying prospect of war like Anne, or the STD-ridden scandals o…

stop

i m sad again but I thought I was getting better? the human brain works in weird ways

friend

photo taken from Korean Students Speak I've thought for a bit about what I consider to be a friend. It's not like there is some clearly drawn out line defining what is friend what is lover what is acquaintance what is a confidant what is a…

platform

although I've been using hatena for a pretty long time to document things (not on this page) I'm still unsure about how I feel about it as a platform. It's a little clunky and hard to navigate cuz not fully translated and I can't read japa…

blog

starting a blog and telling nobody about it is surreal. it's like shouting into the void, except it's inhabited by search engines and occasional human readers. i'd like to time travel into the middle ages to run up and shake the shoulders …

post-goodnight existentialism

i'm in a different place now than i used to be before and it makes me wonder how different i'll be next year. and the year after. i'm drifting away from everything and everybody that i thought were the constants in my life and i just don't…

Untitled

"Is it weird that we only miss things when they're gone, or is that inherent in the meaning of the word?" - Bryan Lee O'Malley, Lost At Sea

family

i didn't expect that spending 6 days away from my family would make me grow a fonder appreciation for them. in fact, i viewed the trip as a getaway from just that. an escape from those i share a home with. however, as soon as i felt the du…

i miss you

...like a ghost misses tangibility, how it can only watch hopelessly as skin brushes against skin, fingers trace patterns on arms and backs, looks down at its own translucent wispy form and can think of just one word: incomplete. ...like a…

email

- from - Someone once told me that the universe wants to align itself in ways that act in your best interest, based on how you actively express your desires to it. Also, it doesn't understand negatives.What this person meant was if you're …

a field trip

an uncompleted draft about 8th grade band trip - entitled "what i learned at whistler" bumpy and winding roads are extremely nerve-wracking this mask is actually super good at blocking out bad smells (of which i encountered many on the whi…